I was 19 when I had an abortion.
I did not go to a clinic–I devised a home remedy plan. After two weeks my body began to abort the month old embryo.
As a reader you are probably thinking, “Why did you do that?” Simply, I was a teenager who was scared.
The baby’s father did not care for me past a friendship and my parents are Pastors. I was also suffering from depression and discovering I was pregnant caused an even deeper darkness.
Four years passed before I even told the baby’s father what I did. He responded with a laugh, “You got knocked up!” He stopped laughing when he found out he was the father. He said I made a good decision by not keeping it. That left me hurt, realizing he did not care about my well being. Around this time my doctor informed me that due to my alcohol abuse having a child was not safe.
That news taught me the lesson, “A man reaps what he sows” (Galatians 6:7 NIV). Since the time of the abortion, it took me six years to go to counseling and face the inner demons I had hidden away. I was a 25-year old woman hiding low self-esteem, depression, suicide, and hurt of taking a life I had created.
Now I walk in deliverance and freedom that God has forgiven me for my past. I focus on John 8:11 NKJV, “And Jesus said to her, ‘Neither do I condemn you; go and sin no more’.”
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